What a rant...

Yeah I just want to rant...as usual. Just had some really weird times recently. Also some really drunk times. We will ignore the drunk cos the drunk is just embarassing, and drunk Em isn't proud of herself. But apart from drunk Em, there is pissed off Em. She is mad at her stupid idiot of an ex who is a complete moron. I think I have a right to not want him to grope me (especially as he got married already...what a w**k). But no...he got all mad cos apparently we're meant to be friends.Friends don't grope each other, but that's just my opinion. And I never want to hear him say the word "molest" in a sentence in conjunction with me. I can't believe I ever had feelings for him. I can really pick them can't I. He also got so drunk that he started fighting again, with one of the nicest boys ever, and annoyed everyone that was around him. Then he had he gall to blame me for the fact that he cheated on me. I was so happy about that one. Ok, so he made some very good points but he didn't have to be an ass about it. Nice to see that some things don't change. Ok rant over on the subject of him (I don't want to mention his name cos I don't want anyone he knows to know it). On the subject of I need to sort myself out, I want to rant about myself being an idiot. I must stop drinking so much, and need to think before I do stuff. That might actually help. Oh, I was doing so well with not being stupid and then I have to slip up. Yeah in a little while I will laugh about it, and I won't care anymore but at the time you just feel stupid. I guess I just want to have fun and enjoy myself, but other people don't see it like that even though they do crazy stuff that I would never dream of. I wanted to be a mature 20 year old, and yeah I'm just a bum-out student. Oh well, I better stop complaining and actually do something about it. Can't be a bum-out student forever. Em out xx

Boys will be Girls...apparently

Ok so theres a new programme on after the OC on E4 on a Tuesday night called Boys Will Be Girls. For anyone who hasnt seen the advert, this is washed up boyband or pop band stars dressing up like girls to form a brand new girlband. Sounds cheesy and pathetic. It is. But in the best way possible. It's actually quite funny and the lead singer is a bit of a hottie even though he's gonna be a girl. One guy used to be in "R&B band" VS, one of them was in "the next Steps" Scooch, the lead singer I dunno about...I missed that and the last guy was in...wait for it...The Fast Food Rockers! They also auditioned Jimmy from 911 (oh my god they were so good) and Sam from The AllStars...and if anyone remembers them, then they will remember a certain Ashley aka Darren Osbourne in Hollyoaks! Man this show is so good. And yes it is really sad that I am watching it but I get the feeling that both myself and my sister (I heard her laugh out loud more than once) are going to be avid viewers of this. I want to see how they make the kinda fat guy from Scooch into a girl. Oh and Martin (Fast Food Rockers guy) wants to be the prettiest girl in the band...I need to tune in to see how this one pans out. I urge all people on the planet (or at least in Britain since I don't think they show it anywhere else) to watch it! You will not regret it! Em out xx

Everyone!!

Ok so seeing as this is my blog, I shall write a little about all my favouritist people on it...not that I think many people in the world will care, but you can read it anyway. First there are my two best mates Karlie and Leanne. Lea lives in Edinburgh with Leeane and Kayleigh and is doing a Tourism course at Napier Uni. She is so bubbly and fun and at the momento is all loved up and its so cute. Lea likes to dance, shop and drink with me, so we get along swimmingly. Karlie lives here in Glasgow and works at Allan Glens with me, and also at an Estate Agents in the "glamorous" Kirkintilloch. She enjoys gossiping and laughing and therefore we also get along simmingly. She is also loved up with young Richy, and they went away on holiday yesterday for their 2 year anniversary (awwww). Then theres all my colleagues at Glens. Ausrine and Joanne (who I have already mentioned as I work with her on a Friday night) are the best chargehands you can ask for. Ausrine is pretty laid back and a lot of fun to work with, and you always have a laugh with Joanne. The two boys, Steven and Thomas are very quiet compared to the girls, and they like to talk to each other rather than us. Then theres Karlie, and then wee blonde Emma who is the dirtiest girl ever, yet she looks so innocent. Emma is such a good laugh and we will really miss her when she has to go (she has a lot of uni work as she is going into her 4th year of Primary Teaching). Trish is new, and although she is quite a bit older than the rest of us, she is a really cool chick. I don't know her that well so I can't say much else. Lauren however is a really cool Glens chick. I think she will fit in very nicely. We had a total laugh last week when we had a drink together and I can see me, Karlie, Emma and her having many fun times together. Keeping in the Glens spirit, some of the best people in Bishopbriggs drink there. First we have my favourite guy, English Mick (or Mick Shaw),who calls me his Angel. Mick is like the cool drunk uncle that almost everyone has, and he is a good laugh, and also protective when he has to be. Then there is Uncle Mooney, or Mark as most people know him. He likes to give me advice and buy me drinks, and he loves me lots. Oh, and who could forget Sean...Karlie's favourite guy in the club. The big cuddly bear, who likes to pick people up randomly and at inappropriate momentos. We love Sean (when he manages to come in and see us...we miss you Sean, you must come more often). Then theres the resident grumpy old men, Jimmy, Jack, Eddie, Alan and Graeme (the Friday night Bonus Ball crew). And the Bingo crew, Jimmy again, Charlie, Tam, Marie, Sheila and all the other lovely ladies. They may be old but they are a cool bunch. As are the whole Friday night crew, with Frank and Dougie and everyone. I love them too. And who can forget the Smiths crew??? Jimmy, Laurie, Eddie, Pat, Alison and Trisha, and anyone else I missed out, those guys are a riot sometimes. And of course we must never forget the young team. Davy, Kirky, Higgy, Steven, Wavy, Max, Greg, Colin, Pirez, Toe and Baz (although they're moving on up), Callum (when he's down from Aberdeen), and anyone else (although I can't think off the top of my head). Even though sometimes they can be right pains in the arse, they are lovely boys and I wouldn't change them for the world! I guess I missed out a couple of people that are pretty cool, Davie, Andy Pandy, Drew, Panda, Willie and James Geddes, Mick Speirs, Andy Dodds, Mick Cairns, and of course, how could I ever forget! The McKeller family. Billy, Eileen, David, Ian and Scott. All the boys are so nice and Billy and Eileen are so cute, even though theyve been married forever. Then theres Scott and Caroline, Linda and Barry and Barry John. A better bunch of people you will not meet. And last but not least, my present favourite person in Glens, the ever lovely Scott Letham. He is a total doll, and I love him to bits just now cos he's really nice to me all the time. I think I hav rambled on long enough about these crazy people, but outside of Glens we still have Ross and Ger, Emma and John, and all my family people. And of course people I havent spoken to in a while, like Zeb, how I miss her too. Oh well...that's my sad sad life and all the lovely people in it. Hope this isn't too boring to everyone...Em out xx

Happy Days!!!

I had so much fun last nite. I didn't think I would have a lot of fun cos I didn't really do anything but it was nice. It was Gordon's 21st and his 70s theme party. I didn't go in for long...I was in the club talkin to Davy and Wavy for a while. And getting hugged off Scott Letham. We need more guys like Scott in the world. Not only is he good looking, but hes also a really nice guy, and he smells loverly!!! But I digress...The party was good. Everyone was all dressed up and looking really strange. Gordon was (as can be imagined) really drunk. He drank a pint of drunk. That's like every spirit we have in the bar, gin vodka, tequila, sambuca, midori etc, in a glass with miller and blue wkd in it too. Needless to see he spewed a lot. I wonder how he is feeling this morning...poor boy. I think a lot of the boys threw up...that club is going to be minging of sick today. But anyhoos...I got a rare number of drinks bought for me, including one from Drew Letham (yes, Scott's big brother). It was really nice of everyone. I also got a rather nice birthday kiss off of Baz, and now I owe him one on his birthday too! Tehes. Everyone is so nice in the club. I really feel grateful to them all for making me feel so loved. Went to Jumpin Jaks with my favourite Pimp afterwards...Callum Sinclair! And Colin and Max (dressed as Olivia Newton John). It was a good laugh. I enjoyed my birthday and that's all that matters to me. Oh, and unlike Gordon, I can actually remember it too. It was a good night really...although I feel a bit worse for wear today. But I have decided that there are certain people that I need to get out of my life for the moment...they are just so immature. And it's time to make a change in my life becuase now I am 20. Good times lie ahead and they shall start from now. I also have to skate up to the club laters to get my presents back, because I left them there to go to JJs. Anyways...that's really it. Em out xx

Going 'round the twist...

Ever had one of those days where you feel like you may be going insane? I had one yesterday. Sometimes I think I will actually crack up if I get any angrier or more fed up with Michael. I mean, I didn't do anything our manager hasn't done before and since when has he had the right to be mad at me because I gave a guy a couple of bottles of beer to take home. It's so not a big deal. And then to start this charade of saying goodbye to everyone really loudly in front of me and ignoring me to indicate that to him, I don't exist is completely stupid! Hello...if you didn't care you wouldn't make such a big deal of it. If he really didn't care at all, he would just leave me alone. I really hope he takes that trip to Australia soon because I am damn fed up with being treated like I'm worthless by him. I don't even know what I did wrong. All he ever does is make me feel like I'm nothing...but then I realise that I am so much better than him. I rise above his pettiness and try to ignore it as much as I can, but I take an odd sense of satisfaction from his feeble attempts to show he hates me. I laugh because he does the opposite. Ha-ha. Idiot. On another...happier...note, it is only two days till my birthday. The day I get to see my Lea again. I hope Scottie and his pals are in the club because I like them. They're nice boys. And they're cute. I should make friends with them, what a brilliant plan! For now, I must return to the reading of Charlotte Bronte's Villette, so I bid you adieu...Em out xx

Friday nights at Glens....!

Yeah so work today wasn't as much of a drag as I imagined it might be. I love Friday night shifts with Joanne. She is one of the only people I can work with and not be pissed off at. I think she just has a great respect for other people which is really cool. But Brian (my boss) phoned me to come in two hours early at 6. This means working the two hours between the rushes. This is the time that everyone toddles off home for dinner. However, I got a headstart with our tips, getting a nice wee £4 from Andy and Mick. I also got a great many compliments on my glasses (yay!). I even got a compliment (sort of) from the hottest guy in the club, the lovely Scott Letham. Well he said I should leave my glasses on because they look really good on me, but I dunno if he meant that I should leave them on so they cover up my face. (Yeah, we women do really read that much into what you said...aren't we awful!) Anyways, I think I will take it as a good thing, and I must say I was very much feeling blushy for about a minute...that rarely happens to me. And to make my day even better, my favourite Callum came in wearing ultra cool trousers. Unfortunately he came in and hung out with Toe, who is just annoying me recently and I don't know why. Oh, and I get the feeling Gordon Pirrett's girlfriend, Debbie, feels funny about me being around him. Oh well, I would be worried too. He's hot, and I am a predator (if you listen to the rumours and gossip that goes around Glens.) How is it that men seem to gossip and spread rumours more than women? Glens is a prime example of guys with too much time on their hands, a lot of jealousy and very much imagination. Some of the gossip is true, but a lot is not. It's pathetic that grown men spread this stuff. I mean really, for little schoolgirls we can accept it, but grown men (many with wives and kids) its really sad. I feel sorry for the people who have to spread rumours to have something interesting happen in their life. People are so silly. Anyways, the point is, I had fun at work despite Joanne telling me she is thinking about taking a job she has just been offered closer to home and with more hours every week (and Fridays and Saturdays off - seriously, I want this job!). I love working with her, as I said. I will be very sorry to see her go, and will miss her muchos. She's so much fun. Oh well, we shall see what happens. For now I must sleep. More work tomorrow and more studying to be done early as I need time to prep myself, just incase Scottie the hottie comes back in. Well, a girl can dream can't she....Em out xx