What a rant...

Yeah I just want to rant...as usual. Just had some really weird times recently. Also some really drunk times. We will ignore the drunk cos the drunk is just embarassing, and drunk Em isn't proud of herself. But apart from drunk Em, there is pissed off Em. She is mad at her stupid idiot of an ex who is a complete moron. I think I have a right to not want him to grope me (especially as he got married already...what a w**k). But no...he got all mad cos apparently we're meant to be friends.Friends don't grope each other, but that's just my opinion. And I never want to hear him say the word "molest" in a sentence in conjunction with me. I can't believe I ever had feelings for him. I can really pick them can't I. He also got so drunk that he started fighting again, with one of the nicest boys ever, and annoyed everyone that was around him. Then he had he gall to blame me for the fact that he cheated on me. I was so happy about that one. Ok, so he made some very good points but he didn't have to be an ass about it. Nice to see that some things don't change. Ok rant over on the subject of him (I don't want to mention his name cos I don't want anyone he knows to know it). On the subject of I need to sort myself out, I want to rant about myself being an idiot. I must stop drinking so much, and need to think before I do stuff. That might actually help. Oh, I was doing so well with not being stupid and then I have to slip up. Yeah in a little while I will laugh about it, and I won't care anymore but at the time you just feel stupid. I guess I just want to have fun and enjoy myself, but other people don't see it like that even though they do crazy stuff that I would never dream of. I wanted to be a mature 20 year old, and yeah I'm just a bum-out student. Oh well, I better stop complaining and actually do something about it. Can't be a bum-out student forever. Em out xx